Suddenly I have this feeling

Suddenly I really miss being single. No commitment, no disappoinment & no heartbreak. Oh my, what am I thinking?

The heartache. It’s enough. I can’t handle it anymore. Just enough. It already exceeds my limit.

Just leave me alone. I need time for myself.

Ruined

Yeap. You ruined my mood. We were talking on the phone while Skype, I’m so happy you are safe & sound arrived at your home from long road-trip. Happy to hear your voice again after weeks. I was. 

Last time you promised that you’ll visit me here during semester break because you cannot make it during mid-semester break due to short times. I came to see you, believing that you’ll gonna make it up to me next time.

I asked you, are you going here later? Then you said you cannot make it. I’m not being inconsiderate but have you forgotten that you promised me? Maybe, promises are not that important anymore. People nowadays throw it here, there & everywhere but never do the talk. Yah, just talk the talk till I got bored of everything then walk. Disappointment. The only thing that you good at giving me.

Shit happened. It always does but I never take it seriously. Everything went wrong & everything I see is bullshit. Feeling is not that important anymore. Fuck feeling. Fuck life. Fuck love. Fuck everything. Fuck everyone. Just take my soul away. I don’t wanna feel a thing. It hurts. A lot. Everytime.